big brat world



big brats are well read

i read a lot of books at the same time because i'm an aries and i get bored

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currently reading
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currently reading
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currently reading
TBD :)
september 2025
a beautiful exploration of grief, death and memory. i cried so much reading this, especially (spoiler) while reading the letter addressed to chongmi from her art classmate, which showed us a glimpse of who chongmi was through a lens separate from her daughter's version of her. i related to zauner's insistence on pouring over the specifications of her memories, almost like she wanted to 'get them right.' i love how she showed the aftershocks of grief, how the initial blow isn't necessarily the worst part, and how humans revert back to comfortable yet toxic behaviors when dealing with intense grief. i saw a lot of my own experience of losing a parent in this text and it was a cathartic read for me.
september 2025
literally what the hell!! but in the best way!! every few pages i kept asking myself, why am i reading this and why can't i stop? i went into this completely blind and decided to read it based on the fact that a review on reddit said 'something depraved happens on every single page of this book' and they're not entirely wrong but it also wasn't nearly as depraved as i was hoping. is there something wrong with me? is there something wrong with moshfegh? well i'm a big fan of whatever's wrong with both of us, so!!
september 2025
an interesting look at how social media makes even our relationships to ourselves parasocial. nothing really happens in this book, but that sort of seems reflective of the content. when you spend your time obsessing over another persons' online presence and projecting onto them, you remain stagnant.
september 2025
my youth!! honestly i totally forgot how entrenched in misogyny everything was in the late 90s and early 00s and how girlboss feminism was a completely predictable cultural reaction even though now we look back at the feminism of the 2010s as cringey. it was like that for a reason, y'all! also it was nice to read a nonfiction book where i understood 99% of the references on a deeply spiritual level.
august 2025
hahahahaha!!!!! this one pissed me TF off!!! all i can say is i'm glad i did this with a friend so we could rant to each other about how ridiculous it was. multiple versions of this have come out over the last 30 years and none of them talk about phones, the internet or techonology in general and how it impacts art, how we make it and what it means to be an artist in modern society. also this workbook requires an absurd amount of introspection which seems irresonspible considering the author is not a therapist. the author seems to think that working through/using your trauma will help you make art... all it did was exhaust me!! morning pages and artist dates are fine practices. take everything else with a grain of salt.
august 2025
so so so so good. pretty identical to the film (a favorite) which i was happily surprised by. the only difference really is regan is a lot more vulgar in the novel. also the detective is a lot more annoying lol
august 2025
isn't it interesting that you can't describe how something tastes without using flavors to do so? other senses aren't like that. you can say something smells like the last day of school and i think people will understand. you can say something sounds cerulean or looks quiet or feels empty. but taste needs food and flavors to come alive. i thought about that a lot while reading this.
august 2025
SOOOOOOO good. i don't think i've ever read a book like this before. non-fiction written by an investigative journalist in a retelling that reads like fiction. all the layers of how the stories are told, i think, reflect the complexity of the topic itself, which is women's desire and how they wield it or how it's wielded against them.
august 2025
i really wanted to reread a favorite from when i was in middle school to see how it might've influenced my style and taste as an adult. first of all, definitely shouldn't have read this as a middle schooler. second, i totally forgot the entire plot so it was like reading it for the first time and i genuinely enjoyed it. i also realized palahniuk hugely informed my taste in that barely anything phases me no matter how disgusting or violent or extreme it is. thank you, chuck.
august 2025
a walk to remember is one of my favorite movies of all time. i thought, yes i need to read the book! it will be so good! *buzzer sound* WRONG. i can't believe the beautiful diamonds they made out of the absolute rotten coal of this book. negative one hundred stars
august 2025
snooze. didn't like any of the characters. not enough tension. didn't care for the secret admirer letter trope. basically it's my own fault for buying this book because the red flags were right there, girl.
august 2025
CUUUUUUUUTE!! screaming and kicking my feet!!! this was a fun one!!
august 2025
i hate the trend in contemporary romance where the only type of conflict allowed is miscommunication. authors (and probably moreso publishers) don't want characters with real flaws who sometimes do bad things. it makes everything SO boring!
august 2025
enemies to lovers + close proximity = yes please. yum yum gobble gobble. but this was just okay. also so many emily henry books have MCs with dead dads?? like, same, but can we try something new?
may 2025
i appreciate gilbert's woo-woo nature but i still don't fully trust her.
may 2025
LOVE!!! this novel is entirely its own beautiful thing. i stopped reading for a few days to make the experience last longer. one of those books that reminds me why i love writing.
april 2025
it took me SO LONG to finish this one. i wanted to like it more than i did. i can see myself revisiting this in the future and liking it a lot more on a second go around.
april 2025
i love bernadette mayer so so much. her daily poems are especially my favorite, and i believe this collection is where she began that practice (or at least choosing some to publish).
april 2025
eileen myles for fucking ever. they're such a rockstar. they could write a book with one word repeating for 500 pages and i would love it, probably.
april 2025
make poetry funny and whimsical again!!!
april 2025
sometimes i don't totally 'get' dorothea lasky but sometimes i don't care if i 'get' the poet or the poetry, i just like how it all comes together.
february 2025
an absolutely gorgeous debut poetry collection. 'the dog' is one of my favorite contemporary poems. it's so heartbreaking and beautiful.
january 2025
i randomly picked this off my bookshelf and there were photos of me and my dad inside. he was deeply into studying religion and philosophy and it felt like he was saying hi from the other side, and also making a cute lil joke that was just for me.
january 2025
this took me an embarrassingly long time to finish. i'm a sucker for any kind of unique formatting, and this one is the author's diary with the sentences in alphabetica order (hence the title). the way the sentences would sometimes create new meaning when placed amongst their alphabetical peers was truly delightful.